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"The Warrior In Me" Album details

 

 

Hi all! this is the home of all the details to my  EP album "The Warrior In Me" and my single "I'm Steppin' Up" off the album, both available now.

If you'd like to hear some snippets, just scroll down a wee bit and you'll find all 5 of them.  Then just below that are the full lyrics to the songs. 

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This album celebrates recovery from domestic violence and the will and determination it takes to recover from such abuse.  I'm working with Mike McCarthy here in Manuka Studios in Orewa, New Zealand. 

If you'd like to purchase the single, please email me at steppinupmusic@yahoo.com

 

 

 

 

 

For those of you with connections to Domestic Violence Shelters, Hospitals, Friends or Family that are in need of support in getting out of a bad situation, please forward this onto them.  I remember a time in my life when something as simple as a television program made ALL the difference to me.  Music is just as powerful.  Thanks all.  Lori

The Songs On The EP Are:.. (Please click on titles to hear a sample of the song)

1. I'm Steppin Up

 

2. In Spite of You

 

3. The Warrior In Me

 

4. Too Old For My Time

 

5. Horror In Your Eyes

 

Lyrics:

1.  I'm Steppin' Up

Pre chorus

Iím steppin' up (yeah) Iím steppin'in. (ugh) Iím steppin' out of the pain Iíve been liviní in.  Iím sick of the fight and those sleepless nights, Iím steppin' up and into my life.

 

VS 1

Iím sick of all this pain and you hurtiní me again.  Iíve had enough of your crap.  Iíve been on the floor and I ainít hurtin no more, cause Iím done with you itís a wrap!  Yeah you tried and tried to push me aside and make me believe I was bad, but the only one here that needs pushed to the rear is you (yeah you heard me) you.  Causeí

 

Chorus 

Iím steppin' up (yeah) Iím steppin' in. (ugh) Iím stepping out of the hell Iíve been liviní in.  Iím sick of the fight and those sleepless nights, Iím stepping up and into my life. 


VS 2

Yeah  you can save all your words, you are lazy and ubsurd and Iím not afraid to say anymore.  Iím taken myself out of this hell, Iím finally free- of you. (ugh) Yeah you though you had broken my will to survive, and it is true that I was barely alive, but those days are gone for I know what you've done adn you have no power over me. Cause...

 

Chorus 

Iím steppin' up (yeah) Iím steppin' in. (ugh) Iím stepping out of the hell Iíve been liviní in.  Iím sick of the fight and those sleepless nights, Iím steppin' up and into my life.

 

Bridge

My religion failed me I know, and my family was just the same, but I donít need them for Iíve found a friend who is always there for me. (you wanna know who it is..?) Yeah Itís me.

 

Final Chorus

So, Iím steppin' up (yeah) Iím steppin' in. (ugh) Iím steppin' out of the hell Iíve been liviní in.  Iím sick of the fight and those sleepless nights, Iím steppin' up and into my life.  Yeah  you can save all your words, you are lazy and ubsurd and Iím not afraid to say anymore. (no, no, no) Iím taken myself out of this hell, Iím finally free- of you. (ugh), Iím steppin' Up!!! (yeah) Copyright Lori Crandall/2005 

 

 

2. In Spite of You

 VS 1

You saw me on the street beggin for some food, you must have laughed to yourself in your superior mood.  You always liked to think that your religion made you right, I never fit into that mold so you said I deserved my plight. What you did not know was that I was saving myself.  Livin on the street is better than  liviní in your hell, Iíd rather be alone eatiní with the rats than bein in your life, youíve shown me you donít care how I am as long as it ďlooksĒ right.  So now Iím here today stakiní my claim, Iím taking back whatís mine and you should be ashamed.

 

 

CHORUS

In spite of you, Iím strong, you couldnít be more wrong, In spite of you, Iím back, so just bring it on, You see Iím through with you and listening to your lies, youíre nothing short of weak, and now Iíve realized that I am strong, Iím here, Iím takiní my life in to my hands, Iím free, Iím aliveÖin spite of you.

 

 VS2

Yeah, Iím sure you thought that last time was the last time youíd see me.  Youíd hope Iíd fade away or die just to keep you clean, but what you donít know and what you canít control, is what I know about me, and I can promise you that Iím not goiní down easily.  You see, Iíve starved, Iíve even lost my car, Iíve lived with nothiní at all, but now I know I can fight, Iím better than you all.  So look at me look where I am and take a look at yourself Iím being heard, Iím beiní loved, Iíve finally found myself!

 

BRIDGE

In spite of you, I always knew that Iíd break free someday, youíd hear me on the radio and I would finally say, what you did to me was nothing short of inhumane, you killed my soul, but now Iím back to set the record strait! 

 

CHORUSÖend  Copyright Lori Crandall/2005

 

 

 

 3. The Warrior In Me

 

VS 1. 

There are days that I remember your eyes, filled with rage as you looked at me.  I thought your anger was somehow my fault, and thenÖI murdered myself.  I thought I must have been nothing, but those days are gone, I let go of you and given you back your thorns, and now I finally see, that thereís a Warrior in me!

 

CHORUS

Everything I am

Everything I know

Everything I see

Everything Iíll be is Inside of Me, YeahÖ

 

Every time I cry

Every time I scream

Every time I love

Every time I singÖIts inside, yeah itís inside inside of me.

 

Yeah, you gave me your worst, and I fought with my best, and the Warrior, yeah this Warrior she lives on in me!

 

 

 VS 2 

Yes, you may have broke me.  But all you showed me, was just how strong I am the warrior that is me.  Yes, you may have cut me, but all that you taught me to see, is that my power to thrive and my will and my drive, and my heart as my guide, will live on eternally.  Free to fly, with this Warrior in me!

 

CHORUS

 

BRIDGE

Now I never thought I could find myself, I could free myself!  I always thought Iíd be in this pain again and again, locked in myself, chained to these walls, never again to feel any love at all!!  But the Warrior, she freed me!

 

FINAL CHORUS

Everything I am

Everything I know

Everything I see

Everything Iíll be is Inside of Me, YeahÖ

 

Every time I cry

Every time I scream

Every time I love

Every time I singÖItís inside, yeah itís inside inside of me.

 

No, I never thought I could find myself, I would free myself, I fought you on this battleground, Now I was lost now Iím found, Yeah, you gave me your worst, and I fought with my best, and the Warrior, yeah this Warrior, she lives on in me! Yes, this warriorÖis ME!  Copyright Lori Crandall/2005

 

 

4. Too Old For My Time

VS 1

A young woman sits alone on the couch silent as she hears a familiar scene.  The sounds are the same, the voices havenít changed and she wished it was all just a dream.  Her whole life has been this way, the shouting the tantrums, the pain, but thereís been no way out and small children to feed so sheís had to hide all her dreams.  And somewhere inside herself she screams.

 

CHORUS

I look so old and feel even older was I ever really a child? Oh Iíve been my own mother since the day that I was born and sometimes I just wish that I could die.  Oh my heartís filled with pain are they fighting again, oh I wonder who will win this time?  But I have to keep going for what else can I do, but Iím feeling too old for my time.

 

VS 2

She trudges on until high school is done and then sees she has no where to go.  Sheís spent all her time surviving her home that sheís had no time to prepare for her life.  .  Oh, where do I go, what do I do, College what is that?  All Iíve ever known is mothering and work and I have no idea what to become.  And with tears in her eyes, she silently criesÖ

 

CHORUS

 

BRIDGE

Sheís always hoped that her heart would heal from all of years of pain, but all she she still sees in her eyes that young girl traumatized and cries as she recognizesÖ.

 

I look so old, and I feel even older, was I ever really a child?  (END)  Copyright Lori Crandall/2005

5.  Horror In Your Eyes

VS 1

Sitting alone on my bedroom floor, fighting back the pain from the beating he gave me just a moment before. I know he said heíd stop but I guess he lied, cause Iíve got a busted nose and and a bloody face to testify.  I know I thought all was lost, yeah I thought youíd die, but the very next day I came walking way and you suddenly came aliveÖyou seeÖI  was hiding my face and my swollen and you ran to me and you held me close and I started to cry, and slowly you looked at me and saidÖ

 

Chorus

I saw the horror in your eyes, I felt the pain you felt inside and now I scream to tell the world just what he did to you know that I saw it too, I felt the blows as they pierced you, my body shakes and my soul is tired, how could he do this to you?

 

VS 2

Now Iíve gotta move fast, now Iíve gotta get out because of you I finally see that I am worth it now.  Iíve got no money, see he took that too, but Iíve got my legs, by brain and now my courage too.  Then you took me in, and you cleaned all my wounds, and gave me a home some love and my dignity too.  Iím alive because of you!!  When you saidÖ

 

Chorus

 

Bridge:

But why did you do this, why did you care? Whyíd you come back for me donít you know I was as good as dead?  You see nobody cared, yeah they heard my screams, but they turned their backs, and left me alone to live this fatal dream.  And as I looked in your eyes, I saw a glimpse of pain and could see you were just like me when you said:

 

Final Chorus:

I saw the horror in your eyes, I felt the pain you felt in side and now I scream to tell the world just what they did to you know that I saw it too, I felt the blows as they pierced you, and now you ask me how I knew, because he did it to me too. Copyright Lori Crandall/2005